My last diary was about Britney Spears - okay so check. cool. "community fluff" Not important. THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT ISSUES THAN MENTAL ILLNESS! Get it. I suffer from anxiety. My whole world is becoming how to control it. Are you like me, it seems if I could just get a rest, some true relaxation...I would/could be okay. When I was younger in my twenties, I would often notice that too many "thoughts" were in my mind at once. It was hard for me to sort them out so I could make a coherent sentennce. I am, believe it or not, fairly successful at my job, but I am mentally, and physically taking a beating. I don't know how to stop running. I never stop thinking. How to help? Often, I wonder. I look at the ladies in my neighborhood, so fit, tanned and coiffed, and wish I could be them. Not, haggard, wide-eyed, and tired. And then the next day comes and I have to do the charade all over again. Sorry so whiney. Feel that way tonight. I'm tired.
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