It’s been years since I’ve felt like this, and I hate it. I desperately want to feel "normal" again. Unless you’ve experienced it first hand, you can’t know how utterly debilitating it is to have a genetic chemical imbalance running amok in your brain.
You walk around feeling like you are holding onto sanity by a thread, impatient and snappish, but at the same time barely able to keep from crying. Any little thing will set you off – an innocent comment from a friend or loved one, a TV commercial, a newspaper story. You mentally hold on with all your might to keep from screaming out in anger or dissolving into a weeping pile of mush – either one of which seems to your mixed up brain an appropriate response.