These are only some of the emotional disturbances one can generate by trying to do the impossible. I'm not sure now which was more delusional--thinking that I could have an impact on the future of American politics or self-publishing a novel. Disclaimer: I was duly warned by multiple people that the latter act was "impossible." I'm old enough to know better about the former but I suffer from Crusader Rabbit complex.
Not only do I routinely wake up in the middle of the night, as I did at 3:00 AM, but my brain rarely stops churning these days. Because I am a creative marketing professional, I am familiar with all the different ways one can generate attention for a cause and a message. Unfortunately, even though I systematically execute several of these activities each day, the awareness of roads not yet taken haunts me. My yoga teacher tells me forward bends will help reduce the anxiety but I have trouble bending over (on a lot of levels).